I Am A Highly Sensitive Person (HSP)

I am a Highly Sensitive Person (HSP). I can experience emotions, smells and energies that I can not even describe. Sometimes my sensitive, emotional experiences can overwhelm me and I do not understand them.

I have been urged not to ” make life so complicated”. I’ve actually heard it so many times that I thought there was something wrong with me. I thought I was exaggerating, that I was different, that I was making things difficult and that I was suffering from it because I was looking for it. It has been difficult not to have someone to share this with; it has felt so embarrassing and as if I was trapped by having to pretend.

Our skin is the barrier that separates our interior from our exterior; it is a layer of protection. However, an HSP has very porous skin. Its protective layer is very thin, which means that external energies can easily penetrate the barrier.

High sensitivity is a breeding ground for many diseases. We are not always able to let go or process our emotions. When we can not do that, we begin to develop physical problems, such as skin or digestive problems.

We can also suffer from depression if we do not channel our emotions well because misunderstanding of ourselves indicates that we do not accept and do not know how to love ourselves. And in this world, it’s not easy for people like me to be recognized. However, since I have discovered that I am an HSP, I now know that I am not ill and have been able to relax and feel better about myself.

I’m not afraid of that, but sometimes I have to create a shield for myself, because otherwise I will not be able to survive. Remember that we have been taught not to be sensitive; we are actually taught to hide our sensibilities. For this reason, there are times when I have to hide myself or seek solitude to feel my feelings fully and know that I still exist in a world that does not understand me.

My brain and my nervous system are connected in such a way that I am easily affected by my emotions, by other people and by the world. When you tell me you’re suffering, I’m suffering terribly too. When you tell me how happy you are, I also feel joy.

Being extremely emotional is not the only thing that characterizes me. I am very sensitive in many aspects; even sounds and smells can be too intense for me. I feel the energy flowing through the air, which many other people do not notice.

There is a false belief about highly sensitive people that I would like to correct: they say we are neurotic, sad and introverted, but this is false. An HSP is not a person with problems; he or she is just different, feels and thinks very much, which can sometimes lead to depression and anxiety.

People like me are very good at putting on masks. We do this because we have no other choice because it is very difficult to organize our thoughts and feelings in a world that is not adapted for us.

Many people define me as a happy, smiling and alert person. However, my inner world, the reality I live in, is very different. Sometimes I drown in my emotions. My surroundings sometimes overwhelm me and worsen my mood.

Then we have the expectations others have of you as well as what you expect from others and what you think you can give them. You can give 150% to other people, understand them and feel for them, which can make you overwhelmed, but you are there for them and you will not leave them. When this happens, you expect to get something in return: establishing bonds with others that lead them to understand you; but this does not happen. This is frustrating and disappointing.

Sometimes when a thought or feeling strikes me that surprises others, I feel a little discriminated against. Feeling as if others do not understand or accept your feelings is very difficult. There is a great lack of empathy in the world.

When faced with adversity, I have felt small, weak, and vulnerable. But now that I know I’m an HSP, I want to regain my place in the world and improve.

There are times when I feel like I can’t handle the anxiety I feel. I have suffered through life more than I have enjoyed it. But I have realized that it is a privilege and have decided that rather than feeling like a stranger in my own body, I should be happy. Through my weakness I have become stronger.

It is said that an HSP is a peaceful person, that he or she wants to live peacefully and believe in the good in people. I now feel proud of the gift I received. I’m an HSP, and maybe you are too. Do not be afraid of it.

This is my reality, and it can be yours too. If you feel weird, as if you do not fit in, as if you are small in a huge world, this may be the message you needed to hear to really start valuing yourself. We can not change our past, but it is possible to write a new ending for ourselves.

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